Saturday, June 04, 2005

Parenting this child

What does it mean to parent a child who is gone? It is less time consuming, but more wearying, than parenting a live child. It is emptying the vase of flowers into the compost and carefully picking fresh roses and peonies, irises and forget me nots to place by his picture. He must always have fresh flowers. It is answering the questions of your surviving children over and over. It is searching for his soul in the skies and in your own soul. It is waiting for the far off day when you can hold him again.