Really, really down
I had a dream that I was going to a grove where people went when they knew they were dying, and their loved ones would go see them on their way. I went to sleep and kept waiting to wake up on the other side...but didn't. That was a few days ago and I have been barely functioning, going through the motions since then. I feel so hopeless, hopeless to even give my living kids the happy childhood they deserve. I want to turn back the clock.