Wednesday, June 15, 2005

Existential Blues

I've been having a hard time with prayer the last few days. After all, the one thing I prayed most fervently for ever since I got pregnant with my first child, maybe before, I got a great big NO on. Then, in the wake of grief Hubby starts coming to church and it's like 12 years of prayer answered! Yay! But he only goes 2 months before he decides it's not worth it. Ahhh. Struck down again. I know you're not supposed to ask for signs, but I could really use a freaking YES right now.